I haven't posted for awhile. Life has been going by way too fast. I know I am not the only one out there who feels alone and doesn't know what to do sometimes. I have been thinking a lot lately that there are a lot of things that people who are not suffering with ptsd enjoy. It is hard to go out to different activities. I need to make sure that there will not be any loud noises and not a huge crowd of people. Other wives don't worry about things like that. They don't have to worry will a popping sound from a carnival game will send their husband somewhere. Will he start to have flashbacks while we are out? Will he have nightmare that night? Will he start yelling for everyone to get down? Will he just zone out and just be quite? Will try to build a foxhole out of the pillow and blankets in the bed? He will think he is back in Iraq.
I always see on Facebook how people are going out with their husband to bars, clubs or concerts. It seems really nice and then I think about what that could do to my husband. The going out to those places wouldn't workout great for us. I can say that sometimes I wish that he didn't have ptsd then we could go out to those places. Then I feel like I am being selfish.
It has been been almost 11 years since he was in Iraq. Some days it feels like yesterday. I know that there is not a cure for ptsd. I just hope that the Veterans and troops that have ptsd are coping well. I have seen my husband at his lowest and highest with coping with ptsd. We are on the ptsd roller coaster and I know we are not alone. I just wish there was help out there for our veterans who have ptsd! They seem like they are the forgotten ones! I hope the families are coping well too. As always Semper Fi!
