Have you ever wondered why you are put on the earth? Well I have and I think I know my answer now. As I was growing up and all throughout school I want to be a 2nd grade teacher! I did everything like I was suppose to was in co-op in high school working at an elementary school and I was one of the first people to graduate from San Jac with an Associates in Teaching (it took me a while but I got it)!
Then life happened my husband was sent off to war! After he cam back from over there we were apart of the after war baby boom and had our first baby girl in 2004! After that I decided to get ready to transfer to an university but that didn't pan out. I feel like this my be what I am supposed to do get the word out about PTSD and let people know that there is someone out there that is going through it! You can have a great life with your husband even though he has PTSD!
I knew that my husband would be different but I guess it is hard to imagine how different if you don't see it first hand. He saw and did things that no one should ever see and do! As our life grew together and we had to learn about each other all over again. I began to wonder if we would ever have the same kind of love that we had for each other before we went. I found out that we do have the same love but there are some things different! Our love for each other grows stronger everyday! Thanks to GOD for showing us that we could still be together and love each other with PTSD in our lives. I say our because we are both dealing with it. I never wanted him to deal with it alone and he knew from the moment that he got back that I would never leave his side!
I have been reading books and articles about how many wives just up and leave their husbands because of PTSD. I think with the right information and support they could get a better understanding of what PTSD is and they could help instead of leaving. Trust me it is not an easy road or a short road to helping my husband. We have truly had our high day and very, very low days. I just look at him and know that this is who he is now and the person who he was before the war is in there somewhere.
Support for the wives is great when they are on active duty but when they are not on active duty there is nothing. It is like they are telling you okay now you deal with it. We will not give you any education and there will not support groups that we will help you find. I have contacted the VA and there is a hot line to call and that is it. I need more than a hot line. I need to connect with someone who is living what we live everyday! There are some of my husband's buddies online and they are married and I have talked to them. It is just hard because I don't want to tell people my story and then they look at me like I am crazy or nuts!
Life has to go on but I just take it day by day! My life is not easy but I have a husband who loves me and three beautiful blessings that GOD gave to us! WIth GOD by my side anything is possible!!
